Change Your Life Challenge: Karczewski Sandra

Monday, March 31, 2008

Karczewski Sandra

April 1 - Getting Started

232 Comments:

sandra said...: First of all I want to say con grats to everyone who have made it this far and hope everyones journey is a successful one. I got a great work out in with Kristen, who makes me feel so comfortable and pushes me out of my comfort zone. I feel I ate very healthy all three meals and two healthy snacks. I am so excited but overwhelmed also. Good Luck and don't give up.; April 1, 2008 5:33 PM
sandra said...: Went and worked out this morning and there was a good crowd. I got my butt kicked on the bike that takes you up these hills and when you make it to the top coming down is much easier, but still kicks big mamma's butt. Thank god that was the last thing for my work out.
Plan on eating healthy and getting in my water. I am so excited to have this chance to change my life. LIFE IS GOOD! For once in 14 years its about me. Have a great workout.; April 2, 2008 11:42 AM
Sandra said...: Went and worked out this morning and enjoy all the trainers because no one has the same ideas. They all have had there own game plan so it doesn't get boring. Went to the morning meeting and got some great tips and product ideas. Also learned too much water isn't a good thing either. Keep on pushing.; April 3, 2008 12:53 PM
sandra said...: I thought last night for dinner was going to be a challange with my family. My husband and kids wanted pizza and so I stopped at Jewel on my way home from work and got so halibut(first time) yum and steamed some brussel sprouts and made a salad and ate first. Told him to order a small pizza and there better not be any leftovers and I soaked in the tub for a half hour. It felt good to eat healthy and take charge of my eating habits for once and not be a victim to my family. Worked out this morning with Rene and I am dog tired. Lets stay focused this weekend because weekends are the hardest.; April 4, 2008 11:52 AM
Todd - Quantum said...: Way to do something for you by eating right and soaking in the tub! I find on weekends that going to the gym FIRST THING is the best way to get-r-done for the day. Keep up the good work!; April 5, 2008 11:55 AM
sandra said...: Worked out this morning and did mainly legs. The leg circuit was pretty intense we went through five different circuits 4 times.It was nice to have two other teammates working on the same station. You don't realize how much sweating you can do just by doing legs. I felt good after doing it. See you tommorrow.; April 5, 2008 2:08 PM
SANDRA said...: Did upper body with a group of wonderful ladies and this was the first time that I have worked out at 7:00am. I was waiting in the parking lot at 6:30 ready to go. What is wrong with me? I usually like to sleep in on the weekends because I work at 5:30 durning the week. Someones starting to change and I'm might be starting to like the new her. Thanks Bill for being there for me today. Michelle M if you weren't sitting next to me on the bike for 20 minutes I probably would have bailed thanks for the support. THANKS; April 6, 2008 1:10 PM
rene said...: Classes at LSF are designed for all levels.You are ready now, just show up, let us know you are a first timer and we will as we always do demonstrate all levels of intensity and you pick the directions you wish to go.; April 6, 2008 7:14 PM
Sandra said...: Today was a great workout after being killed on the arms yesterday. I'm in a lot of pain in the upper body but I will push through and give it a couple of days to feel better. I need to soak my soar muscles in the tub. Don't forget seminar tonight 7:15.; April 7, 2008 10:51 AM
Sandra said...: So I went for a can of pepsi which I haven't had in 2 weeks, it is my addiction and took two sips and spilled the rest down the drain. First, I felt guilty secondly, it didn't taste good. That was huge, I don't need it anymore.; April 7, 2008 5:48 PM
Sandra said...: For once in my life I have not given up on something that is very hard mentally, emotionally and pysically. In the past I would quit, my life is worth so much more than any words or emotions will ever explain. I am truely blessed to have this chance and have met terrific people who make me feel comfortable in my own skin and that is priceless. Kirsten you are my rock. Thank you to everyone for the encouraging words and motivation. Sorry its one of those days.; April 8, 2008 11:32 AM
Sandra said...: Today has been a very difficult day. I was at the hospital for 13 hours, my dad had 9 hours of surgery to remove cancer they found. I prepared all my meals all the way up to dinner. I was able to leave for an hour and a half and attend the seminar. Around 7:30I went and worked out and grabbed a 6inch veggie sub on the way home.
Hope the days to come get better.; April 9, 2008 8:53 PM
Renee said...: I give you lot's of credit for finding the time today to work, but I bet it felt good after such a long day at the hospital. Thoughts and Prayers for you and your family. Hope everything goes well.; April 9, 2008 9:26 PM
sandra said...: worked out by 7:00 so I could see my dad this morning, he is doing better, but my emotions are on a roller coaster. I am an emotional eater but this time around is different. Since I am getting in 6 meals it seems to be a little more controlable. Knock on wood. I'm in my own little world and this morning Kristen got me in a better mood and I still got my butt kicked and pushed for five more.Keep up the good work everyone.; April 10, 2008 12:10 PM
Sandra said...: This week has been a very challenging week for me. I have a lot of difficult things going on in my life. I am taking one day at a time and not trying to overwhelm myself because I don't want to fail at some that is so important in my life. When I went in to the office at work and saw some ladies that I haven't seen in about a month they asked me if I was losing weight. That was enough conformation for me. I have to believe and the rough times go by and I can get through it and remember I am important and worth something. Did I just say that. Thanks Dr. Phil. My days will only get better.; April 11, 2008 1:14 PM
Sandra said...: I must go at a bad time to work out. I don't see many challengers when I go. Today was a nice workout but I feel very tired maybe all the stress over the last week. See everyone at the meeting and Tuesday is another meeting at 4:30 to get our last points in before the cuts. Take care.; April 12, 2008 2:12 PM
Sandra said...: Between the workout and the seminar it was a very inspiring day. Joe is very honest and it hits home and maybe allows us to start peeling away those layers that have been there for a long time. I know today some of those layers came off for me. Saying no is big for me. I will start trying it when its not a priority. Wish me luck.; April 13, 2008 4:41 PM
Sandra said...: Today started off as a nice day because of the sun then a great workout with Jeff. To top the day off I had a voice message on my phone my dad was coming home today from the hospital. He wasn't suppose to be released until Thursday. To see my Dad after 9 hours of surgery due to cancer on Wed and to see him so sick and see him fight to get home, he is my inspiration. I can do this. Beliving and being strong, never giving up no matter how bad it gets. It's been a hard life lesson to learn this week.; April 14, 2008 11:33 AM
Sandra said...: Great morning,worked out with Kirsten and burned 418 calories on the eliptical. I love that thing. Got some rocks delivered I will help my husband shovel them. Thats a first. See everyone at 4:30. Keep up the great work.; April 15, 2008 11:18 AM
Sandra said...: What a beautiful day, I think the bike with the hills and mountains killed me today. I am extremely tired maybe the stress of first cuts.I know I am making better food choices and I haven't had pop in 16 days compared to my 15 cans a day. I feel great! Good luck to everyone and continue on with our good habits.; April 16, 2008 1:41 PM
Sandra said...: Last night was very restless, I wish the email maybe stated a little more. I am very proud of myself because I have never worked out 17 days in a row with having a job, children and everything else going on. I decided when I started this April 1st it was going to be about me for once and I promised and owe it to myself first. Joe's seminars teach me something and break me down each time. Joe puts me in check and for once I DON'T FEEL QUILTY.; April 17, 2008 12:14 PM
Sandra said...: Today I felt really rushed in the gym. I had an hour to get my workout in because it was a early release in New Lenox and I drive a school bus and had to get back to work. I don't like these days. I guess I am a routine kind of girl. I really like working out and seeing Tina,Ginger,Katie and Charlotte they are a really nice group of girls. Yesterday I went on a two mile walk and today if the weather holds up after my dads doctor's app. I'll try for three. It's great to have all this extra energy. Rene thanks for showing me how to use the ball the right way it made a world of difference.; April 18, 2008 1:41 PM
Kim Truffa said...: Hi Sandra. I saw your response to Renee and I was just curious as to the question you had asked Renee about. I am concerned because I have been getting some conflicting responses that would effect my progress. Sorry to be nosy but I was wondering if you were in the same boat. If you wouldn't mind, my home email is ktruffa@comcast.net. Again, I don't mean to put you on the spot and I certainly understand if you would rather not. Good luck on another weekend in the "Challenge!"; April 18, 2008 3:36 PM
sandra said...: Had a good 1 1/2 workout this morning and feel really good. It really nice to hear compliments from people that aren't in the challenge and you barely know but see you everyday and notice things are changing on you. You know that hard work is paying off. I am so grateful. Thankyou everyone for supporting me and pushing me out of my comfort zone.; April 19, 2008 1:08 PM
sandra said...: I'm having trouble sleeping,I know I should have been in bed about 10:00 but the last couple of days I haven't been myself.I've been weak, dizzy at times,shortness of breathe, so I went to the doctor and I have bronchitis so I am up coughing and all that fun stuff. Everytime the weather gets crazy it really effects me but I'll be at the gym it might take a couple days to be at 100% but I have come to far to stop now. Hope I can fall asleep. See you in the morning.; April 20, 2008 12:44 AM
Sandra said...: I went and worked out this morning and it is tough when you have no energy and under the weather. I still put in a good hour when people were telling me to go home.
My heart is in this process and my dedication. I love seeing everyone and love working out. It is my therapy. Hope my fever breaks and these breathing treatments do some good but its a bummer because its a beautiful day but my health is more important. See you tomorrow I need to sleep.; April 20, 2008 11:24 AM
Sandra said...: When I got up this I felt better, hopefully thats a sign that I'm recovering quicker. Usually in the past it would take weeks even a month for me to get back on my feet. I keep pushing even if its in slow motion. I'm still sweating.
Workout this morning was enjoyable.
Have a beautiful day and HAPPY BIRTHDAY RENE!; April 21, 2008 11:05 AM
Sandra said...: I really enjoy when Kristen is at the gym. I did 60 minutes of cardio today and after dinner I either ride my bike or walk two miles. I feel great. Now if I can get over this chest cold it would be even better. I can honestly say I haven't felt this good or this active in about 12 years. Thanks everyone.; April 22, 2008 11:13 AM
Katie Davis said...: Sandy, it's so nice to meet new people and I'm glad that we met. You are putting in more time and effort into this challenge than a lot of other people...and trust me, you WILL lose inches and eventually pounds too. Continue to focus on doing your best and it will show. See you tomorrow!; April 22, 2008 3:44 PM
Sandra said...: Last night was a challenge for me I put the kids to bed at 9:oo and I wanted some serious junk food pop, pizza, chips. I got out of bed walk around my bedroom and had a conversation with myself and realized it wasn't worth it and opened the windows and went to bed.I must be learning something through all of this. Had a great workout with Jeff did some bench pressing with the bar started only with seven and was able to get it up to ten. Met a new challenger Stacey today. I t was a good day.; April 23, 2008 1:14 PM
Sandra said...: Went to the morning seminar and did a morning workout with Kirsten. Last nights seminar was about choices. Pride - Guilt. I've been talking to myself a lot more, but I don't answer so I'm not crazy. I'm really nervous and emotional about the next eliminations. I really want to be here. I still have a long way to go and a lot more to learn. All I can say I have given is 110%.; April 24, 2008 11:32 AM
Sandra said...: Had a great workout with Bill his statement is, 'I want to see you sweat" and I surely sweat. Today is his 21st birthday. To be 21 again and to make all the right choices over would have been the key for me. No regrets though it is a learning process and it makes me a better and more knowledgable person. I also started to jog on the treadmill ever couple minutes. That is HUGE for me. Today is a great success in all.; April 25, 2008 11:23 AM
Sandra said...: Had a great workout with Bill his statement is, 'I want to see you sweat" and I surely sweat. Today is his 21st birthday. To be 21 again and to make all the right choices over would have been the key for me. No regrets though it is a learning process and it makes me a better and more knowledgable person. I also started to jog on the treadmill ever couple minutes. That is HUGE for me. Today is a great success in all.; April 25, 2008 11:23 AM
Sandra said...: Can we say waterfalls! What is wrong with me? I quess that I actually have some care or feelings about myself that I haven't had in the last 14 years and knowing that I have been doing something over the last 30 days for myself is overwhelming and knowing that tuesday is make it or break it day. I have become attached to many individuals. I am a fighter and will not give up. Had a great cardio and ab workout with Jeff this morning. Like the new haircut. Everyone work hard this is our last chance workouts. Take care until next time.; April 26, 2008 11:40 AM
Sandra said...: Today was the day that I feel that made all 27 days show my most improvement. I took a half spin class. I thought that I would never in my life be able to accompolish that class. Dy after day I see these amazing people come out sweating and in my mind I say to myself maybe one day. Today was that day and a start. Lynn and Renee were right there next to me and Renee was so awsome. Thankyou for the push and the pep talk it got me half way through the class. I also did the treadmill and the eliptical. I have my daughter's confirmation practice and nephew's communion, I will make the right food choices today. See everyone tomorrow. Thanks girls for the support.; April 27, 2008 12:54 PM
Charlotte said...: Sandy-I just read your post about the spin class! That is awesome! I am nervous about taking it too!
Have a great day!; April 28, 2008 10:57 AM
Sandra said...: Words can't describe how I feel about this whole challenge. I am a different person in 30 days. God has blessed me in so many ways and I finally can see a new life for myself. My choices have been easier, temptations are not a option anymore. I have worked to hard to let my old ways take over. I actually have will power and pride,respect and love. I see all the things I can do now that I couldn't do when I walked in that door and that amazes me. Thankyou for giving me my life back and making me WANT it back.; April 28, 2008 11:31 AM
Charlotte said...: Hey Sandy!
You are working twice today??
Your a rock star!; April 28, 2008 12:42 PM
Sandra said...: GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE AND BE PROUD OF YOUR ACCOMPOLISHMENTS!; April 28, 2008 9:52 PM
Sandra said...: After working out in the morning yesterday I went back for the kickboxing class. It was a good class but the little dance moves at the end I was a little lost. I don't think I'm eating enough the last couple of days to avoid bloating for the weigh in and measurements and that womanly issue. I went at 5:00 to get my last chance workout in this morning, just cardio. I'm proud of myself and to be at the gym 3 times within 24 hours I must be on crack or something. It feels great. Good luck! I'm so nervous I'm sick to my stomach. Thankyou for all the support and to my new friends.; April 29, 2008 8:25 AM
Sandra said...: I have about 10 minutes in between my routes and thought I would take a minute. I think I have made myself so sick from the stress of the weigh in and measurements that I do not feel good at all. I will be in to work out at my normal time with no energy and nausea along with other issues. I hope the results are posted quickly so the stress doesn't take a toll on all of us if it hasn't already. Stay positive and strong. Take care.; April 30, 2008 8:27 AM
Charlotte said...: Hey Sandy!

I just wanted to say congrats...I think you did so good.
Here is my home email in case u hear anything: lollie96@hotmail.com.
Also, just curious, would you mind sharing a couple days of what u ate...I am interested in seeing where I went wrong and what u did right!
Thanks!; April 30, 2008 10:49 AM
ginger said...: Hey sandy,
I just wanted to thank you for your encourgement, you are a great person and i wanted to wish you good luck. I hope to see you again working out but in case i don't KICK BUTT GIRL and keep in touch
grgswfe89@yahoo.com; April 30, 2008 11:15 AM
Sansra said...: Did 30 minutes on the treadmill and 30 minutes on the bike for 7 miles on hills plus. It felt great. I quess I'm a little confused some people are saying we will know tomorrow, some say we will be called this afternoon, some say it will be posted. What is the correct answer? I don't want to bug anyone because I know this morning she was busy recounting. Anyway good luck this stress is getting to me and has me down. I haven't felt like this in 30 days.; May 1, 2008 11:15 AM
Charlotte said...: CONGRATULATIONS SANDRA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Your a rock star!
Do great!; May 1, 2008 4:30 PM
ginger said...: hey girl i told you were gonna do it, congrats and good luck.
keep it touch; May 1, 2008 4:59 PM
Katie Davis said...: Sandi, Make us girls proud! You go girl and don't look back!; May 1, 2008 6:27 PM
Tina in NL said...: Congrats Sandy!!!!!!! I told you, you were going to make it. Do Great and make all us fat-bottomed (soon to be not so fat-bottomed) girls proud!; May 1, 2008 8:26 PM
Sandra said...: Just want to say thankyou to everyone for the overflowing support and to my girls that I will truly miss. Thankyou for believing in me and for the encouraging words. It is bittersweet. Not once did I give up and that is what got me this far. My past is my past and I will never look back. Lifestage and Quantum gave me my life back and I will be forever grateful. I have a long journey ahead and I plan to run with it and do not look back. Thankyou to everyone. Good night.; May 1, 2008 10:15 PM
Sandra said...: As I lay in bed this morning after the best night sleep in awhile I realize the biggest challenge for me is going to Lifestage and not seeing my comfort zone. ( those challengers faces) I have seen these people for 30 days and reguardless if you made a bond or not you knew you were there for the same reasons. That is my challenge. I know I will do fine but I am a routine type of girl. Tonight is my work banquet at Harrah's Casino they have the best food, so portion control and I better take some more money to eat fast and stay away from the desert table.; May 2, 2008 6:11 AM
sandra said...: Today was a crazy day I didn't get to Lifestage until 11:30 and it was just Connie and I. Connie is so sweet. I usually go earlier but I was at the softball fields for three hours for my daughters pictures and I was watching the clock so I didn't run out of time to get a workout in. I called my husband to come and pick up my oldest. Tomorrow is the big run/walk my biggest fair is to finish in last place. See you all tommorrow.; May 3, 2008 5:27 PM
Sandra said...: I am really nervous about this morning, don't know how to dress too much or too little. I am going to try to jog the last lap if I have any energy left, I have been running on the treadmill for a week and a half can do about 5 minutes on a good day. HERE WE GO. I'll see everyone there.; May 4, 2008 5:27 AM
Sandra said...: I would like to say I am really sore this late afternoon/evening. Well, I finished the 4 miles in last but the moral is I made it and 30 days ago I would have been on the couch or in my bed or even stuffing my face.I just want to thank Rene from the bottom of my heart for stickig through the end with me. I love you girl. My emotions were on high from start to finish. I'm proud of myself. Time to soak in the tub. See you all tomorrow.; May 4, 2008 7:03 PM
Sandra said...: Went and worked out at the new place and can I say huge. It didn't take him long to have some of the members doing long sprints.
Its exciting to be part of the move. I do like how it is sectioned off for maybe some classes. More privacy. My right ankle is really sore today with the rest of my body. Hope everyone has a great day.; May 5, 2008 11:17 AM
Kim Truffa said...: Hi Sandy. Saw your comment to Olga and I hope you "threw away" whatever got you down! Hope to run into you soon. Keep up the great work and we will both be ready to start the next school year with a whole new attitude!!!; May 5, 2008 8:41 PM
Sandra said...: Hey Kim,
Thanks for the words of encouragement. School is almost out and that what needs to be my focus not sour grapes. It hits you hard when you hear someone say something and you need to ask yourself what is their motive. Anyways I'm proud of you running the 4k that was HUGE. Take care.; May 6, 2008 6:12 AM
Sandra said...: Had a okay workout this morning didn't sleep well and wasn't feeling to good. Got 45 minutes in on the eliptical, Joe said it sounds like a flu virus I might have. Everyone have a great positive day. Take care.; May 6, 2008 11:18 AM
Sandra said...: Feeling better this morning on that end but this morning sinus issues hit with the weather changing. At the beginning of the school year in August 07 Lincolnway gave us 3 shirts we are suppose to wear. I could never fit into them, so I always wore black or beige. Well today I fit into the shirts and they are loose. Now I don't feel like an outcast, I finally belong to the job. The things that make you feel out of place and uncomfortable. A fricking polo. Have a great rainy day. I'll be at the gym my normal time 9:15.; May 7, 2008 8:29 AM
rene said...: Glad you felt comfortable enough to come to me with your concerns.Take this to heart:
Life is to short to wake up with regrets.So love the people who treat you right.Love the ones who don't because you can.Believe everything happens for a reason.You have been given a second chance, grab it with both hands.If it chnages your life, let. God never said life would be easy.He just promised it would be worth it.BELIEVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!; May 7, 2008 11:14 AM
Sandra said...: My 3 year old was up at 4:00 crying this morning and I got her back to sleep but I couldn't go back myself, instead of doing some tossing and turning until 5:30 I decided to go to the gym at 5:00. I had a nice workout with Mike, it was my first time with him. Everyone keep warm. Has anyone heard anything about the next seminar at Lifestage?; May 8, 2008 8:33 AM
Lynne said...: Hi Sandra,
I was just reading thru the blogs and saw your comment on your work shirts. I know exactly how you feel. I worked at Mario Tricocci and we had to wear these crystal t shirts with our logo on them, and the extra large wouldnt of fit a poodle. Of course they fit the skinny girls perfect, but I refused to wear them until they got me an appropriate size, wich they never did. I always had people asking me where my shirt was. It was very humiliating. Good for you that yours fit. Just wait until the new school year. They will have to order you new ones in a small size. You go ,girl!; May 8, 2008 3:50 PM
Sandra said...: I feel like everything is hitting me at once this week. My 14 year old came home sick ,the nurse said it looks like strep, went to urgent care last night and was there 2 1/2 hours and her test came back neg. Thank god. I woke up this morning feeling the same as she has. Half a day of school everything is rushed today so I'll get to the gym sometime before 8:00. Just a drama filled week.; May 9, 2008 9:35 AM
Sandra said...: Today is a busy day so I wanted to blog so I didn't forget. Have a doctor's at 8:00 this morning, gym afterwards, daughter's softball game, other daughter,s softball practice, shopping and cooking and cleaning because my family is at my house tomorrow because my dad is still sick. I quess the time at the gym is all the me time I get. Have a great weekend and ladies Happy Mother's Day!; May 10, 2008 7:33 AM
Sandra said...: Happy Mother's Day everyone! I believe this is the best one for me and many more to come. M y three year old last night about 9:30 informed me that daddy got me flowers and a necklace and do I want to see. It was priceless. Of course the the other two girls were so upset that how could she do that. Everyone is coming at 2:00 and I planned the menu around me today, maybe a little selfish but its food they will get over it. I hope Kirsten comes back soon, I miss her. Have a great day spite the weather and enjoy your children life goes by to quick.; May 11, 2008 11:16 AM
Sandra said...: Had a good workout even though I can't do alot of weights right now due to this upper resp infection. My 14 year old has it and last night my 3 year old keep waking up and she only does that if she is getting sick and sure enough this morning fever, throat, nose. So I have 2 more in the family to go through and hope they stay healthy but it stays about 10-14 days. Oh well, have a great day.; May 12, 2008 11:44 AM
Sandra said...: I'm really in a funk, I hope the food seminar can help change the same food pattern I'm in. BORING!!!
When school is out and work is over for the summer I will be able to give 110%. Have a great day.; May 13, 2008 8:28 AM
Sandra said...: Had a good workout this morning. Did eliptical,treadmill,bike,walked a mile around the perimeter with weights. The big countdown 12 more school days. YAH! I'm excited about tomorrows seminar, its like my big night out. How sad. I will be missing my older daughter's softball game and it is the first game I've ever missed in 5 years. I hope she understands. GUILT,GUILT,GUILT!; May 14, 2008 11:09 AM
Sandra said...: Had a good workout with Kirsten. Looking forward for tonight. Have a great day.; May 15, 2008 11:19 AM
Sandra said...: Last night was a nice night, beautiful house to relax in and have some me time. Joe keeps talking about trail mix as having as a snack but all the trail mix I've seen has been high in calories and fat. I have a work meeting when I usually go to the gym so I'll be in a little later. Thanks Kim for the laughs last night, its was a good time.; May 16, 2008 8:31 AM
Kim Truffa said...: If I'm good for anything it's always that! Thanks lip gloss queen! Right back at ya! Hope to see you soon.; May 16, 2008 8:02 PM
Sandra said...: Had a busy day, started off with softball this morning and went and worked out at the gym, then went and got a facial, eye brows waxed, and my hair high lighted. I feel like I have been not focusing on some of the other things I use to do,but that was my 30 pound treat.
When you start feeling good about yourself and other people notice you have changed it makes you feel good and makes you want to look better and be a better you. Have a great night, I get to finish off with a 7:15 softball game.; May 17, 2008 5:54 PM
Sandra said...: Has a great workout with Mike this morning, gym was kinda slow. I feel good after I workout but I have so many things to do today and I feel a nap coming on. The price of food and gas is getting out of control. If I knew how to maintain a garden I would save alot on veggies. Enjoy the rest of your day.; May 18, 2008 1:28 PM
Sandy said...: Today was another great workout with Kirsten and I push myself harder each day I am there. Everyone there is so supportive and notice when changes happen on and to your body. It really keeps you motivated. 9 more days of school and I will be a free lady. No more work for the summer. Sorry I'm a little to excited. That is when it will be my time and really get into it. Have a great day.; May 19, 2008 11:49 AM
Sandra said...: To all the challengers going through a rough time, my thoughts are with you and stay strong. Everyone experiences difficulties, that is the test to make you stronger and later on you will ask yourself how did I get through that? I just went through one with my father having cancer and still he is still struggling and if he can get up everyday, so can I and be grateful for all that I have and sometimes it might not be much but its something. I don't know if he will ever be the same but I take every second I have and thank god for it. Life is a hard lesson, and you ask yourself how many lessons do you need? Take care. Rene it was good seeing you and hope your knee is okay.; May 20, 2008 11:42 AM
sandra said...: Hope everyone is doing well, this morning I did cardio and legs. I feel good when I can get my workout done early in between my routes at work. When I know I have to workout later on it eats at me all day. I don't like to have that on my mind. Lynn I taped Oprah last night I hope that recipe was on that show. Let me know how it taste. I'm all about a good new recipe. Have a good one everybody.; May 21, 2008 11:37 AM
Sandra said...: It was nice to see Stacey this morning and she is looking good. I don't see hardly anyone at the gym. It must be the time I go, I feel I'm in my own little world.
Did cardio and arms this morning andI feel like I'm doing something when I burn 600-700 calories, if that is accurate. I just need to remember to eat sometimes. Somedays I'm hungrey for those 6 meals, sometimes I only eat 800- 1000 calories and I notice I don't lose any weight. I glad I'm not overeating like I was in the past. So I'll take what I can get. Have great one.; May 22, 2008 11:28 AM
Sandra said...: Got a phone call this morning that the ambulance was taking my grandma to the hospital. She had fallen, she has only been home for 2 weeks from the nursing home. On Easter she had a mild stroke and heart attack and I hope she didn't have another stroke. I know for sure since this morning she has a broken pelvic. This adds more stress to my life because I have to help my mom take turns at the hospital daily, she is the only child and my dad is recovering from cancer. So what do I do, I already had a candy bar because I can forsee the days and weeks ahead. I did cardio for only 50 minutes because I'm bummed.; May 23, 2008 11:41 AM
rene said...: Keep faith all will work out in the end. So you had a candy bar, move on!!! We all have times that it looks like we will never get everything in and some how, we as mothers manage.You are a strong person, go and take care of your mom and grandmother. Be prepared when you go, hospital food is the worse. Use the time you are there, while your grandmother is resting and get in down time workouts. My prayers are with you and your family for a speedy recover.; May 23, 2008 8:05 PM
Sandra said...: Had a busy day today, just have a minute before I go up to the hospital. Did cardio this morning and some odds and ends. I don't like blogging this late. Enjoy the rest of this beautiful day.; May 24, 2008 4:55 PM
Sandra said...: FOR LADIES EYES ONLY!!!!

So I been feeling that maybe my bra might be getting loose on me.That is where I never loose weight so I decided to stop into Catherines since I was at Trader Joe's and I saw a bra that was a couple sizes down and it was a good price and took it home. Never tried it on because I just don't know who's watching. This morning tried it on and it fits. I went from a 58 to a 50 and the cup size is perfect but the size around could be a little smaller. My husband told me I look like I have points or bullets. Why do all my new bra's do that? Thanks husband for the support. Have a great day you might see me with points walking around so watch your eyes so I don't poke one out.; May 25, 2008 7:39 AM
Kim Truffa said...: I will certainly be on the lookout for your torpedo T*%S!!! Try to keep your spirits up and hang on through the tough stuff. Hope to see you soon lip gloss queen!!; May 25, 2008 7:34 PM
Sandra said...: I'm really exhausted this moring and my three old on top of everything else was waking up every half hour I think about 3ish she fell asleep. I lost so much valuable sleep during her little games. Got to love them. Then my other two girls were not in their beds and I got nervous they decided to sleep downstairs. Whatever. I'll be in the gym somtime before noon. I have to go make the girls pancakes.; May 26, 2008 9:04 AM
Sandra said...: Can my life worse? On my way home from the gym I was talking to my mom on the phone and all of the sudden, she screams your dad is bleeding to death and hangs up. Well my dad has a drain on the side of his stomach coming out of his pancrease from the mistake the doctor made back in April. I made a detour and headed to my parents and the ambulance and I pulled up at the same time. M y dad was laying on the bathroom floor in a puddle of blood and all his clothing were covered in blood. The neighbor next store came over and applied pressure on the wound until the paramedics arriveds. Thank god she is a nurse. We are not sure what is wrong the hospital is so busy and the results are taking hours to come back. So I came home to eat and go back up there,so my dad can get a little sleep. My father and grandmother in the same hospital how crazy. Our family has no luck, and my dad is my best friend and I wouldn't know what to do without him. Sorry I'm a little emotional and can't talk to my husband about this. Does it get better because since the challange I have had many challanges.; May 26, 2008 6:05 PM
Rene said...: Things are only as impossible as we make them. God never gives us anthing he thinks we can not handle.You must trust in your faith, trust in yourself and know that you are a strong person.; May 26, 2008 7:01 PM
Lynne said...: Hi Sandra- I sure hope your Dad is ok. I am sure that was a horrible thing for you.You will be in my prayers. Keep your chin up, things will all work out.; May 27, 2008 7:33 AM
Sandra said...: I am usually at the gym by now and I feel so run down both mentally and physically. My mind is telling me my family needs me and I can work on me at another time. Lately my dad tells me he loves me and he never tells me that and that really scares me. Is he preparing me for something and letting me know after all these years that he does care. I'm scared. Well its cold outside everyone stay warm and thankyou for the kind thoughts.; May 27, 2008 9:21 AM
sandra said...: I went and worked out this morning with barely any energy to get me through it. I'm really depressed due to my dad and I really have nothing more to say today. Take care and be greatful we have this chance with Lifestage because if you don't have your health you don't have anything.; May 28, 2008 12:37 PM
sandra said...: Did cardio and core today and it was busy this morning, just kept to myself and asked Joe to put me in another area. It was nice to focus to many thoughts going through my head. My daughter graduates tomorrow from 8th grade and I'm proud of her. That is my happy moment, first honors and njhs. She has high standards and I don't think I was like that at that age. Take care.; May 29, 2008 12:57 PM
Sandra said...: Today is the big day for my 8th grader and when I worked out this morning I had so much going through me. My dad won't be there today for my daughter, but I can't let her know how sad I feel for her. I'll make the best of her special day and pray that he will be at many more special events.; May 30, 2008 12:00 PM
Sandra said...: I would of liked todays workout to of been longer but after doing 20 minutes cardio and 3sets of working bigger muscles I had a weird feeling come over my body I sat down and I was done for the day. I was up at the hospital until3:00 this morning because my dad started bleeding from another area of his body and it was an emergeny they called all of us to the hospital. So my body must be tired where it is all catching up with me. Take care.; May 31, 2008 3:03 PM
sandra said...: so today was another short day but I got in and did some cardio. 2 more days of school/work. Everyone have a good one I'm boring today.; June 1, 2008 3:54 PM
Sandra said...: Today was a crazy day, only a half day at school had to clean the inside of my bus took about 2 hours.That counts for upper body, went swimming for an hour with the kids before I went to the gym and worked out with Jeff on legs. I did some new things. It was nice to be all by myself most of the time.; June 2, 2008 5:02 PM
stacey said...: Sandy,

I hope your dad is doing better. I know its hard to see your parents sick. Remember God wouldn't give you anything you can't handle. No sense losing sleep over things you can't change. Take care of yourself!

Stacey; June 2, 2008 10:26 PM
Sandra said...: Thank god for the last day, I feel free. I worked out tonight which is much different than normal. I really like getting my workout out of the way in the morning but what can you do when you have other things going on. I'm really tired lately and not 100% focused. Until tomorrow.; June 3, 2008 10:20 PM
sandra said...: Just got home from the hospital it was a long 12 hours my father almost died on top of me today in the washroom. I found 20 minutes to workout.; June 4, 2008 9:01 PM
sandra said...: I want to blog before I forget, I'm going to take a little nap I got home a little bit ago from being in ic since 2:30 am with my dad and will be going back up around 9:30. He has many procedures being done today to find the bleed. Hopefully they can find it and repair it quickly. I feel like everything I've done in the last 2 months have been worthless. My energy level is at 0 and I feel like I did when I came in. Now we have a competition in three weeks! Hopefully luck will be on our side.; June 5, 2008 9:01 AM
Lynne said...: Sandy, don't get discouraged. I know you are going through such a hard time, but don't think you haven't made progress. You would be so worse off without starting this program. I am thinking of you and your Dad.; June 5, 2008 11:34 AM
Sandra said...: Well they finally found where my dad is bleeding from. Thank god. I feel a little relieved but he is not out of the woods. I just want to thank Chris for getting me through yesterday, talking to me really helped and I really needed that. I ready to focus because I'm about a week behind my goal. I guess there are always life lessons in everything we do.You may be ready or not for them and you may be ready or not to let go but its not in your hands and that is what is really hard for me to take. I will survive!; June 6, 2008 8:13 AM
stacey said...: Try and get some rest. I'm glad they found where he was bleeding from. Thinking of you and your dad.

Stacey; June 6, 2008 5:15 PM
Sandra said...: Joe and Kirsten got me back on track today and I have to keep telling myself why I am here.It is for myself. After all this time with my dad tonight they tell me I have to gown up he is a carrier of merca (sp.) are you kidding me. Other than that today has been a good day.; June 6, 2008 7:16 PM
Sandra said...: Got in the gym around 9:15 had a great workout it feels like it did in the beginning. It was confirmed my dad has mersa and he is being treated, they believe the nurse in icu gave it to him. My time is limited at the hospital and I need to visit my grandma at the nursing home, go to two softball games and check on my mom. I also purchased a bathing suit and I dropped many sizes from last year. That doesn't mean I look good in it but my girls are water bugs. Have a great day. I just keep telling myself stay positive to get through it all.; June 7, 2008 2:19 PM
Sandra said...: Had a great workout, didn't get to do spin. Thats okay some of them did spin for a hour and a half (Angela). Joe is like the spin freak, he LOVES it. Maybe one day I'll be that way. Nope. The sirens are going off and I want to get this done before the storms roll in. Went to three grocery stores, stopping in to see dad,grandma do some swimming and go by my mom's and watch my husband cut grass. Have a good one.; June 8, 2008 1:17 PM
Sandra said...: Started off this morning with my warmup and Kirsten talked me into kickboxing with Becky. I really enjoyed it. At first I said to myself I don't know if I'm going to last an hour and I did. I'm going to take more of the classes and just enjoy and learn different things. I didn't have the chance before when school was in session.
I want that spin class but I guess I'm afraid of failure. I was only able to do it a half hour 8 weeks ago. I watch everyone everyday. I want, want it, want it.
As for my dad he may have a possible blood clot, waiting to hear the results on that one. When the sun shines it poors, but so far his bleeding has stopped. 4 days. Have a good one.; June 9, 2008 12:38 PM
Sandra said...: Todays class with Liz didn't happen she was sick, but Joe surely had no problem stepping in with a boot camp. For me it was intense but I never gave up and I did alot of things I would never be able to do in the past. I would only last only 5 minutes. I struggle with planks and holding and throw downs, I would really like to build up those muscles. It was hard but self rewarding. I do have alot more energy today. Have a good one.; June 10, 2008 1:55 PM
sandra said...: As I watch the weather like a freak I pray to god that it does not rain on friday from 6-10:00. My daughter's is having her friend s graduation party about 50-75 kids. What do you do in a basement if it rains? The party is a pool party. Also the list keeps getting bigger because these girls want to bring there boyfriends. My dad might come home today as long as his sugar levels are fine not 260 like yesterday, you want them as close to 100 I guess. No classes for me today just a good butt kicking at the gym, hope to see someone down there.; June 11, 2008 7:35 AM
sandra said...: Kirsten had me running baby steps today and each day I will build up and hopefully be able to a couple miles at a time. I was only going to do 20-25 minutes and did 45 thanks to Kim. Talking really helps get through it. We keep asking Joe about next weekend and he pretends he doesn't know anything yet. Okay! I went and saw my dad today, he is out of the hospital but he's a little shakey. He lost 50 pounds, a little overweight before but now 50 is too much. Maybe 25. I help him figure out his meal plan for today, it was tough because he can't have any fiber and is on a 1800 cal diabetic (sp) diet. We figures it out but it awhile and some label reading. I'mm jumping in the pool with the kids,take care.; June 12, 2008 1:37 PM
sandra said...: On my way to the gym, have a busy day hope by 6:00 the storms stop have 50-70 kids at my house tonight for a graduation party. Wish me luck, I might need a few cocktails to get me through this one. Have a good one.; June 13, 2008 7:47 AM
Kim Truffa said...: I'm crossing my fingers for your good weather! Have fun tonight!; June 13, 2008 9:48 AM
Sandra said...: I was only able to do a half hour today and that was on the treadmill. I'm headed up to N aperville for daughter's basketball tournament hope its not all day. Have a good one.; June 14, 2008 9:31 AM
Sandra said...: Ran on the treadmill this morning and ran my daughter to camp at Lewis for 5 days and I am very emotional because I really enjoy being with my girls. She has called me twice already and that means she must miss me. Anyways I have everyone over and I just want get my blog in before I forget, have a good one.; June 15, 2008 7:51 PM
Sandra said...: Today I don't feel well. My back is killing me and I still haven't made it into the gym. My daughter has a softball game at 6:00. I'm without my oldest at camp. What am I going to do when she goes to college? I sit home a wait for her to call. She is not suppose to use her cell phone, I don't want to miss hearing her voice and her stories for the day. She is my life and our relationship is very different because I had her young and was by myself. All I can say is that I hate golf but Tiger Woods is amazing. Take care.; June 16, 2008 4:36 PM
sandra said...: I feel I lost motivation and my attitude sucks this week. Its the I don't care attitude. Before I would get to Lifestage in the morning and now I get there when I get there. Any advice? I can sleep all day, maybe because my husband is on vacation and my body has finally caught up with me. Have a good one.; June 17, 2008 2:03 PM
Todd - Quantum said...: Let PRIDE be your motivation. Just do it, and when you are done you will be PROUD!

You and your family are in our prayers.; June 17, 2008 8:43 PM
Sandra said...: Thank you Todd, I feel much better today and after talking to Connie last night she made a lot of sense. I guess I don't give myself enough credit and everyone gets into a slump and this is the time where I'm going to have to fight the hardest. I have my work cut out for me if I want to succeed. In the past I would of have quit about 25 times so I know that is growth and I am stronger and today is a new day. I'll be in Lifestage tonight I got the urge to paint my bedroom chocolate brown and a light aqua blue, my husband did all the prep last night so he could go golfing today. Boring! See you later.; June 18, 2008 9:22 AM
Kim Truffa said...: Those are beautiful colors together. I hope it goes smoothly. I hate painting! Can you do butts and guts tomorrow morning at 8:30? I'm going to go in at about 8 to run a bit. Hope to see you.; June 18, 2008 4:00 PM
Sandra said...: Only have a second my dad did good for a week this morning got the 5:00am phone call and back in the hospital. He is bleeding got the bleed to stop this morning with a clamp and just waiting to get into surgery sometime today -this evening. It will take 4-6 hours. Came home to get a quick bite it is going to be a long day and maybe early morning. Take care.; June 19, 2008 4:38 PM
sandra said...: I'm sitting here at the hospital my dad went into surgery at 6:00pm and we are just sitting here and after reading Lynne's blog my heart goes out to her and her family. I am so sorry. I look at my life and my sister who is extremely overweight and I need to get going here and hopefully talk some sense into her. She has many medical problems and we need to be here for ourselves and our children. I had a wake up call and its sad that its someone else's family. Take care Lynne.; June 19, 2008 8:51 PM
Sandra said...: Getting ready to head up to see my dad, his surgery went good took about 4 hours. I shouldn't have seen him last night after it. Seeing him the way he was with the tubes was a little to much for me and that was my last vision of him and on my mind all night, didn't sleep well. The doctor said he's not out of the woods so all I can do is pray and see him as much as I can. He's been through so much since April 9th when is it going to end? I'll be in sometime today allowing. Take care and remember if we don't have our health we don't have anything. It may not seem important when your younger but it does effect you. We are all here for a reason and we have that second chance to change, many don't and then its to late.; June 20, 2008 6:12 AM
Kim Truffa said...: My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family Sandy. Hope to see you soon.; June 20, 2008 7:55 AM
Olga said...: Sandy: My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, hoping your Dad makes a full recovery soon. I know you've been through alot with your Dad's illness.; June 20, 2008 10:10 AM
Lynne said...: Sandy, I am so sorry for what your Dad is going through, thanks for your well wishes for my dad. I can only imagine how drained you must feel. Remember to take care of yourself, your Dad wants to see you succeed. See you Sunday.; June 20, 2008 12:25 PM
Sandra said...: Just taking a little break and I want to say thankyou for all your support. This is where I vent and I feel that I'm being heard even when you don't respond. I guess its good for me otherwise I keep it all in and that is not good. My father seems to be doing good, this morning I just sat and watched him sleep and breathe with the vent thing down his throat and finally around 10:00 they took it out and to see the relief on his face was priceless. He is very blown up and they were going to start lacek (sp). Ths doctor said his ulcer burned a hole in his colin and thats why he keep bleeding and now he's fixed and today is a new day.They didn't have to remove as much colin or the spleen as projected thank god.
Sunday will be a challenge for me because I'm not mentally prepared and my heart is not there either. All I can do is show up and try and give what 110% I have left at this point. Is anyone going tomorrow? Thankyou friends and I greatly appreciate all your prayers and thoughts. Take care.; June 20, 2008 5:49 PM
stacey said...: Sandy, I'm glad to hear your dad is doing better. Don't think of your dad with the tube, think about something you did with him that made you guys laugh, think of the good times. There will be more.

Take care of yourself,

stacey; June 21, 2008 1:25 PM
Sandra said...: Just got home from working out and it was just Jeff and myself. I really am enjoying that boxing bag and am improving everyday. Jeff was suppose to call if the seminar was for points, I haven't heard anything and when I asked during the week I was told no points were given today. I hope that stands. I would love to go if it was manditory but I stopped home for lunch and dropped my daughter off and going up by my dad. I've been running since 7:00am. I am dragging and on empty. Have a good day.; June 21, 2008 2:26 PM
Sandra said...: On my way to lifestage this morning, have to make my husband a birthday breakfast, I haven't even made him a cake.He said its not a big deal but everyone has to make a birthday wish. I thought I would be stressed out even more about today but I have so much on my plate its not even effecting me.
Thats weird because I'm usually nervous Nelly. I'll see everyone today and good luck, you might have to pull me along with you.; June 22, 2008 8:26 AM
Sandra said...: Congrats to everyone yesterday was a butt kicking for me and after the bricks I was so ready to quit.
Thanks to Cindy she got me through it and told me I wasn't quitting. Even though I finished last I was okay with that. I know I did my best. I proved to myself that I have come along way. This morning I know we had the day off but I went in and did a light workout, cardio. I'm becoming addicted to that bunching bag and pretty good.
My daughter had girl scout camp 2 minutes away how can you be so close and not go. Joe even questioned me. It's a part of my routine how do you just stop and I'm one of those if you stop I stop. We did it friends and we rock!; June 23, 2008 1:54 PM
Sandra said...: I got alot to do today and the doctor said my dad will be coming home tomorrow, lets keep our fingers crossed. His recovery is going better this time around. I'm going to change up my routine and go later tonight to Lifestage. Everyone have a great day.; June 24, 2008 8:13 AM
Olga said...: Hi Sandy: My leg is just fine it just needed to be cleaned up, it was actually a scratch, and when the wind was hitting me of course it dried up and made it look worse than it was. Thanks for thinking about me though, maybe I'll see you later at the gym.; June 24, 2008 10:08 AM
kim truffa said...: Hey Sandy! I will be there tonight. I'm shooting for 5:30 so I can get a bike. I'm not sure how quickly Lisa's evening class fills up. 6 may be a popular time. Hope you can make it.; June 24, 2008 10:25 AM
sandra said...: My dad came home this morning. It was very emotional we both pulled up at the same time and he broke down because he was happy to be home. Maybe with him home I can get my home back together. I did my first full hour of spin with Lisa yesterday and I really liked it, I can't do everything 100% but I will get there. Take care.; June 25, 2008 1:03 PM
Sandra said...: I'm really tired today, had alot to do yesterday between softball games and basketball games. My plan today is to get my bedroom that I painted over a week ago back together along with the rest of my house. I'll be in sometime today. Have a good one.; June 26, 2008 9:19 AM
Sandra said...: Didn't go to Lifestage today I decided to use a day off because I didn't take monday off, I know it still counts as my second day this week. It was nice and I got alot done.; June 26, 2008 9:35 PM
Sandra said...: Can I just say how anger I am that in 2 weeks I have stayed the same weight. I do extra things on top of going to Lifestage. Swimming, biking, walking the track and running the bleachers. My eating is 5-6 meals a day and maybe I'm not that hungrey. I'm so disappointed.; June 27, 2008 8:17 AM
Todd - Quantum said...: Sandra - sounds like you are continuing to gain muscle (which is a good thing) I am a "scale watcher" also! Your body will get to a point where it will put on very little muscle and you will start to burn fat, that is when the pounds shed off. Keep up the good work and keep believing.; June 27, 2008 7:37 PM
Sandra said...: Yesterday Kirsten had me doing alot for 2 hours to hopefully get my body going again. Even after an hour and a half of cardio I jumped in the last half of a spin class. The scale is stuck on the same number. Joe told me don't pay attention to the scale, yah ok because if I don't see results I feel everything I'm doing is useless. Todd I'm going to trust what you are telling me,but how long does this go on? After the gym today I think its spa day. Have a good day.; June 28, 2008 9:10 AM
sandra said...: On my way to Lifestage and will be heading off to the zoo with my sisters and my neices and nephews.
I only like to go to the zoo when its cooler out. I really don't even like the zoo come to think of it. You pay all that money for what. I quess I would consider it a donation. My dad looks like he's doing well but seems depress, doesn't talk much. Don't want to ask to many questions. Have a good one.; June 29, 2008 7:02 AM
Sandra said...: taking today off to go downtown with my sister and our family. Doing Navy Pier, Millinium Park, Taste, boat ride, ferris wheel. I think that will be my exercise for today. Taking the train and doing alot of walking. Maybe it will trigger a weight loss. Yesterday was a great day at the zoo alot of work being done so its overpriced and things are closed and not working. Disappointing. Have a goodone.; June 30, 2008 9:02 AM
sandra said...: Can I just say all I did yesterday for about 10 hours and very little breaks was walk. My sister ran us crazy. I haven't been Downtown in about 10 years and last time I struggled and took many breaks because of my weight. This time it was so easy and wasn't tired at all kept up with everyone. I guess if I don't lose anymore weight and the scale doesn't budge I am proud that I came along way. I can do so much and I shock myself. I'm getting rid of my scale today it is becoming an addicition and poison. Have a great day.; July 1, 2008 9:28 AM
sandra said...: Today was a busy day, went to the hospital and waited while they put a drain in my dad he has a bad infection where they drained 500cc of puss it was horrible. When it seems to be going good it slaps you back in the face. Had dentist appointments and 2 basketball games I was only home for an hour today. I'm wiped have a good night.
Buy the way I did give my mom my scale I was becoming addicted and it was actually hurting me.; July 2, 2008 8:34 PM
sandra said...: I just want to apologize for my funk that I've been in for a couple of weeks. Some just say they want to give me a good butt kicking. I haven't been very positive or even happy. I don't know. Maybe there has been alot of negative or ignorant comments flying around and I've had enough. Maybe thats how people work to break you down because thats the only way they can succeed in anything. I feel sorry for them but shame on me for it affecting me. I'm really emotional and stressed because of my father and feel nothing is going right anymore. I had great laughs today with Chris and Olga thanks girls I needed that. Until tomorrow.; July 3, 2008 11:36 AM
Olga said...: Sandy, Congratulations on your 3 points! I hope that helps to get you out of your funk. Just keep going, keep moving forward.; July 3, 2008 1:38 PM
Sandra said...: HAPPY 4TH TO EVERYONE! Didn't sleep well all night have alot on my mind. It will be different not sitting with my family at the parade this year. My 3 year old doesn't understand. Its a little hard to walk in the parade because I'm not ready to be judged. Yes I have gained alot of self esteem and respect but I feel I'm going way out of my confort zone. Lets make it a fun day because its all about the kids.; July 4, 2008 5:49 AM
Sandra said...: I had a great time at the parade and decorating the float it really turned out nice. Had a good time last night until I got home and saw that my dog urinated in my bed and of course on my side. The last time she did that was 5 years ago when she had stones. When she messes in the house I know there is a problem. Took her to the vet this morning and she has the start of an utinfection. Last night we were up late cleaning the bed with the carpet cleaner and it all came out even the smell. That god for that. Had a good cardio workout with Becky and now I'm off to a surprise b-day party. Have a good one.; July 5, 2008 12:44 PM
Sandra said...: I'm so anger and thought my dad was on his way to recovery. Yesterday we weren't even at the party for a half an hour and he started screaming my mom's name from the bathroom and I ran in there and he was bleeding like crazy from his drain. We had to call 911. Once again he lost so much blood and now he had an anyerisum (sp) and to top it off the doctor said his puss site tested positive for merca. My father is a good man, why is he going through all of this? When the doctor walked in my dad started crying and asked the doctor to stop all of this and all he wants is his life back. It broke my heart. I have so much anger inside I need to get into the gym and punch the bag, so hopefully I can make it before noon. Please if everyone can say a prayer for Charles I would greatly appreciate it.; July 6, 2008 7:16 AM
Mark Erickson (Pat) said...: Sandra, this is Pat (Mark's Pat). My mom said she was going to 5:30 mass, I of course was trying to think of an excuse not to go, but I will go and pray for your Dad. I am sorry your family has to go through this. My father who was a drunk just fell over and died but at least he did not put us all through what you have been going through. I feel for you and your family. I will pray for you all.

Also, I will try to get a prayer card from my mom, it is a Priest who was blind as a child and was healed. I'll see if she has one for you-I'll give it to Mark and he'll leave it at LifeStage for you. My mom and her friend went to see this Priest. He is suppose to be a healer.; July 6, 2008 2:58 PM
sandra said...: I just don't have much to say, everyone have a great day and keep your love ones close and let them know how much you love them.Its never to late to make it right. I went to church last night I hope god here's me.; July 7, 2008 12:03 PM
Lynne said...: Sandy, I am so sad about your Dad, he has been through so much, the poor man. I will definatly say a prayer for him. You can't do anything to change fate, just remember that. I am thinking of you and your family.; July 7, 2008 2:16 PM
sandra said...: I planned on spinning this evening and not have to take a day off but my father is in surgery again and I am up at the hospital. This morning they found blood clotts in his lungs and they went in this afternoon to put an umbrella in. Tonight around 9:30 they took him in for surgery to see where he is bleeding because he is losing blood.Just sitting and waiting for the news. They said he lost 2 liters. Good night. This is becoming a nightmare and I can't wake up from it.; July 8, 2008 12:06 AM
Sandra said...: Good Morning, I got home about 2:30 this morning my dad is in ICU, they removed 1.5 liters of old blood and clotts that was causing him problems, they didn't find any bleeds thank god. Lets hope it stays that way. If his primary doctor didn't order that clotting test and he just went into surgery they said my dad would of died yesterday. I was getting anger because I felt god wasn't listening but he was in his own way.Thankyou God. The doctor did admitt all this is due to the accident when he took out a portion of his pancrease instead of his adrenal gland. Hope to get into Life stage today because I wanted to use a day off for Saturday my daughter's graduation party. Thankyou everyone for your concerns and prayers I appreciate it, thankyou Pat for the blog.; July 8, 2008 10:26 AM
Sandra said...: Well friends I don't know how much longer I can continue. I really need to take a good look at my life and see if I can keep going. I am stressed to the max and exhausted to the fullest. I'm not getting any results due to these conditions and I feel I'm at a lose, lose situation. I feel like I'm eating healthy when I do eat and I just don't get it. Joe and Quantum has changed my life and has given me the tools that I am so forever grateful for. My mind is telling me to give it up and I am extremely sad. Take Care; July 9, 2008 9:53 AM
Lynne said...: Sandy, you CANNOT give up. That is only going to make you feel worse. Just think of gym time as your time to destress yourself, collect your thoughts, work out your aggression. You need this in your life. You are taking a hand in your own destiny, don't abandon it, girlfriend.; July 9, 2008 11:29 AM
Chris P. said...: Hey Sandy, You cannot quit! At least you have some time for yourself even if your heart is not completely in it. Keep going...It would not be positive for you to give up! Life is very hard and very stressful. Find it in yourself to make yourself #1 just for a short time each day. I am thinking of you and wishing you strength. ;); July 9, 2008 9:32 PM
Mark Erickson/Pat said...: Sandra, ask those who love you, they will tell not to stop. You need and hour or so by yourself for yourself. Leave it at the door.

Please check the desk, Mark has the card in an envelope, he will leave it at the LifeStage.

I am sure your father who is a good man wants his daughter to be healthy, you have been given an great opportunity, you will not get another one like it.; July 9, 2008 9:37 PM
stacey said...: Sandy,

I'm sure all eight of us have something going wrong in our lives, something we have no control over. Now you have the opportunity to change yourself and not make the same mistakes as your father did at your age. I love my mother more than life, but I look back at some of the choices she has made and I don't want to end up where she is now. I have the CHOICE and opportunity to become a healthier person, for me and my children. You have the same choice.

Your father is in my paryers.

Stacey; July 10, 2008 4:51 PM
Ginger said...: Sandy, It's me Ginger and I just wanted to let you know that I'm saying a prayer for your dad.; July 10, 2008 5:42 PM
Sandra said...: After seeing my father and telling him that I will no longer be going to the gym was not the right thing to say to him. I had to promise my father I won't quit. He was very anger and upset because he said I have come a long way and I need to be there. I told him he is my first priority and I will get through what I need to get through when he is able to get on his 2 feet. The thing about me friends is that my father has always been there for me and I will be there for him. Many people in life are like my husband very laid back and don't let anything bother them. I come from a family where its about the family and we become engrossed in it. Yes it is not healthy but many people go back in life and wish when the time is gone they would of done it differently. Not me I know I'm doing it where my heart is. My mom is a sick lady, her hearing was taken away from her and she goes around looking for security and he is lying in the hospital bed sick. She relies on me and I will not turn my back. 3 months ago my health would not allow me to be there for my family and I believe that this challenge goes beyond winning a prize its a lot deeper than I will ever realize and I hope I can focus because my father is proud and is a fighter and wants me to fight and win not yht prize my life back because I am his beautiful, strong, funny rock. In reality he is my rock and this amazing man who has changed my life over the last 3 months and has challenged me. Thankyou.; July 10, 2008 6:01 PM
Sandra said...: Everyone have a great weekend. I don't feel well and my body is feeling everything and I am in rear form and do not like who I am becoming, my kids and husband just stay away from me.; July 11, 2008 12:35 PM
Sandra said...: Having a better day did a half a spin class Joe threw me into, the gentleman teaching it said it was an endurance one today. For a half hour I was sure sweating. Have my daughter's family graduation party today so I'm cleaning like a nut because I've been busy. My dad will not be joining us and we don't have to worry because we know he is where he needs to be. Everyone have a great day.; July 12, 2008 12:05 PM
Sandra said...: My daughter's graduation party turned out great everyone said the cake was delicious, I wouldn't know I cut big pieces, darn I didn't get one. It had fudge oozing out of it, thats as far as I can take you. It was weird without my dad but his brother looks like him and I clung on to that. Have a good night.; July 13, 2008 6:01 PM
Sandra said...: Went in to workout and did about a half hour not expecting to do Joe's spin class I did hour and ten minutes. I wish I could just stay up longer, only almost 4th class and I came along way from the first class. I'm not going to get discouraged because I do enjoy spinning. Going up to the hospital to see dad and the girls have softball games tonight and I have a 5:00 doc app to help control my anxiety and panic attacks. Busy day. Enjoy everyone I fighting my way back slowly.; July 14, 2008 12:05 PM
sandra said...: saw the doctor last not an she sensed that i was on overload and increased my anxiety medicine which I definately need. Had alot of running with the girls today, my dad is suppose to come home tomorrow. Have a pulled muscle in calve,hard to walk on it today. Take care.; July 15, 2008 6:35 PM
sANDRA said...: My dad came home today and had to take my daughter to girl scout camp in ottawa for a couple days.; July 16, 2008 9:01 PM
sandra said...: My mom found my father dead at 3:00 am this morning, between the bathroom and the hallway. I hate myself because this time I couldn't save him and this is the most difficult time of my life. I will not be in for awhile.; July 17, 2008 3:16 PM
Rene said...: Do not blame yourself, God had an agenda for your father and he is with him now. We must cherish each day we are given, remember those who have gone before us, remember all they taught us and what they ment to us. Time heals the pain, memories give us hope and remind us that we are loved. You and your family are all in my prayers.; July 17, 2008 4:01 PM
Lynne said...: Sandy, I am so very sorry. I know how very much you loved your Dad and how worried you were. God Bless you and your family, hang in there kiddo.I am thinking about you.; July 17, 2008 5:23 PM
Mark Erickson/Pat said...: Sandy so sorry to hear about your Dad. Please let us know if we can do anything for you. He is with God now and at peace. Let yourself go and have a good cry then you must cherish all the good memories. Take care.; July 17, 2008 5:58 PM
Chris P. said...: Dear Sandy, I am so sorry to hear about your dad. This is not an easy time but you must know you are a good daughter, who put him so far above yourself. He, I am sure, is very thankful for a daughter like you. Do not blame yourself or hate yourself. There is nothing any one can do when God is in need of that individual. He is at peace even as you & your family suffer from sadness. Cherish all the good memories not the bad for those are what pulls you through the hard times. Maybe your dad will meet up with my dad and they can talk about how proud they are of us. Take care of yourself Sandy, be strong for your family and be proud of your love for your dad. With my sincere sympathy & heartfelt thoughts, Chris; July 17, 2008 8:34 PM
Olga Athanasoulis said...: 7/17 Sandy: I'm so sorry to hear about your Dad. There is never the right words to say when someone has lost a loved one, the loss is very hard. I know how close you are to your family, and how much love you are surrounded by, it is that love that will sustain you now. Your Dad is in a place Sandy where there is no pain, no suffering, no illness. Your Dad is looking down at you at peace with no more pain. He was so very proud of you and all you have accomplished, hold on to the gift he has left you of precious memories. You and your family are in my prayers. I wish you peace.; July 17, 2008 10:02 PM
Stacey said...: Sandy,
I am so very sorry to learn about your Dad. He is in heaven now, no more tubes, hospitals, surgeries or pain. I know its hard to think about that. I know you just want your Dad back. Remember the times your dad made you laugh, remember the good times.
Take extra good care of your mother.
You and your family are in prayers.

Stacey; July 17, 2008 10:43 PM
Anonymous said...: I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your dad. I have been reading everyone's blogs since getting cut and have been praying for you and your family. I too recently lost my dad and I please know that you are not alone and that he is in a place wihtout pain. I know he is looking down on you and is proud of your accomplishments. There are people here if you need them. Please take care and know that you and your family are in my prayers. Sincerely Michele Miritello; July 18, 2008 9:23 AM
Kim Truffa said...: Sandy, I am so sorry to hear about your father. He has gone through so much. You take such good care of everyone around you. Your dad was so proud of you and all you have accomplished. We are all thinking about you and your family and our thoughts and prayers are with you. Take care of yourself Sandy. Please call me if I can do anything for you or your household.; July 18, 2008 9:25 AM
Todd - Quantum said...: On behalf of the Quantum Family - you are in our thoughts and prayers in these hard times. Celebrate the good times, God has a plan that we do not control. What we do control is our attitude and how we react to it.

Your dad is proud of what you have accomplished, don't lose site of what is important to you.; July 18, 2008 9:39 AM
Sandra said...: I came home to be by myself for awhile and I just want to thank everyone for their prayers and thoughts. We found out that my dad died quickly and didn't suffer. He bleed to death internally and it hit him quickly. The spleen died before him which you can't live with a dead spleen in your body and it busted, noone could have saved him and he would have died on the table. He came home to be with my mom. I saw him and 1 hour later he died. I will not regret the days that I was up there all day and gave up my time and these last three months brought us closer and growing up as a kid he never told me he loved me but the last 3 months he told me everyday. On Wednesday he told me he was so proud of me and don't give up and I have those words to hold on to. He told me I look good and how changing my life is the best for me because he doesn't want me to have to go through anything he went through. I'm not sure what life's lesson is here, I'm not giving up but I'm not ready to move on. This has effected me deeply that I can't describe, I couldn't help him this time and I feel like I let him down and I love him so much and I will never see him again and my memories the last 3 months have been heartbreaking ones. Thankyou everyone.; July 18, 2008 3:50 PM
Ginger said...: Sandy, I'm so sorry to hear about your dad remember he is at peace and pain free. He will always be with you heart and soul and cheering you on. Remember the good times and the laughter.I promise the pain gets easier with time. I'm saying a prayer for you.; July 18, 2008 9:27 PM
Anonymous said...: Sandy's Dad's Wake

Sunday 2-7
102 E Francis Road
New Lenox, Il 60451
Kurtz Memorial Chapel
On corner of Francis/Cedar; July 19, 2008 5:06 PM
Sandra said...: Today is not a good day, and I can't imagine how tomorrow will be.; July 19, 2008 8:49 PM
Sandra said...: I am extremely exhausted and was able to say goodbye to my dad. I just want to say thankyou to Chris and Olga for coming and for the card everyone signed. I don't now what my days hold but I can't read the blogs anymore because I am to sad and everyone is happy and doing well and it is very difficult. Everyone tells me I look like my father and before I would say no way and now I'll take it and run. My oldest daughter is having a very hard time because her papa was her best friend and the only man who loved her, she has been staying with my mom. I'm at my mom's all day and lay in my dad's bed and smell his pillows and put on his slippers, sweater and belt and I feel peace my mom looks at me like I'm crazy but it get me through my days. Good night maybe I'll be back wednesday.; July 20, 2008 10:56 PM
Sandra said...: Today was a busy day helping my mother with alot of phone calls because she is 75%deaf and writing addresses on thankyou cards and everything. As if my life couldn't get any worse my husband was suppose to go back to work at 2:30amm his sup called him and they layed off the bottom 15 guys and he is one of them. We don't know for how long. What is going on with my life, does god really dislike me? How much more can I handle because it isn't much more.
My mom keeps pushing me to come back and work out, I'm not ready yet my emotions are on overload.; July 21, 2008 9:32 PM
Sandra said...: Just hanging in there,helping my mom giving my daughter a break so I will stay the night tonight,she's not ready to be alone.My mom is scared because she can not hear if someone is breaking in and her dog died a couple years ago. I will be back tomorrow morning.; July 22, 2008 2:50 PM
Samdra said...: The black cloud is hanging over our house, after getting back to the gym and having my cry on the treadmill because I am angrey my dad is gone, I wanted to quit but I can't because I need this and I made apromise to my dad. I went to my mom's and I answered the phone it was the nursing home my grandma was having chest pains and was throwing up and the paramedics were on there way. We can not get away from the hospital or grieve because all the time we spent there with my father. It was a very hard and long day and we aren't even sure what is wrong with grandma yet. Please god let everything get better.; July 23, 2008 7:19 PM
sandra said...: My mom is staying with me again she is not ready to sleep by herself, got my dad's ashes and death cetificate and medical records from silver cross. Not happy to see all the info we didn't know and all the info that is covered up very upsetting just a hard day and I put on a act to get through it but inside its killing me. I will never be the same I love my dad and miss him so much.; July 24, 2008 11:07 PM
Lynne said...: Sandy, it was great to see your face back in the gym. I feel very sorry for what you have been through, but remember to take care of yourself. You are doing that by devoting a small portion of your day to your health. Hang in there!; July 25, 2008 4:47 PM
Sandra said...: Thanks Lynne, today was another hard day, I go to the gym but I'm not really there. I'm in a different world. I am not home much because I have so much to do with and at my mom's and everything with my grandma in the hospital. My 3 year old keeps telling me she misses me and loves me and that Papa is in heaven. I haven't really been around my kids my husband has been dealing with them since he's been home. 2 of the doctors called today to see what my dad died from and that was not fun, either they are sincere or want info for there lawyers because I've been requesting and getting all his medical records this week before they become tainted. Thats a second job, but my mom has no clue what she is doing or if she is coming or going. I don't eat much and I know that is not healthy and haven't lost any weight so until the 24th of Aug I'm here to stay fit.; July 25, 2008 7:25 PM
Sandra said...: It was good to see Angela this morning and talk. Not a good afternoon just left my moms upset because my younger sister is just whatever. My dad just told me in the car that all the materialistic things in life can't replace the value of your life and your health and trying to be stress free is so much more than all that. If that stuff makes her happy let her have it. I really hope that was him telling me that and not my mind going crazy. I guess I just wanted some memories but I'll take his voice anytime. I miss him. He makes me strong.; July 26, 2008 2:39 PM
Sandra said...: My daughter clinched her division last night as champs and it was good to see the girls celebrate such a long and hard season, the only lost one game and she had three doubles and a triple. I was proud of her. She works hard at everything and she said she did it for her papa. I went in late and did odds and ends for about 45 minutes and talked to Kim. Thanks for just listening. Hope Rene signed my card?; July 27, 2008 2:30 PM
kim truffa said...: It was good to see you Sandy. We were both signed and taken care of. Hope to see you tomorrow for spinning with Lisa. Low key and fun. That's why it's my favorite...and the only spin I'm interested in. Even though I am told it's the "easiest." You don't have to kill yourself to get a benefit! I was told the announcement about an upcoming "challenge" would be made this week. No details, though!; July 27, 2008 5:26 PM
Sandra said...: I guess I get upset when I hear all these rumors. I guess the people who are talking might like to stir the pot I don't know. I just want my life back and not have to deal with everything I've been through since April and its not ending more problems keep building up and I feel like there is no end in sight. I'm angry right now and when you hear certain things you react a certain way, I just don't know rumors are ugly and make people miserable and I fall into that category. Shame on me I teach my children but I do the opposite. Each day I'm struggling with life and trying to understand the unknown.; July 28, 2008 11:20 PM
Sandra said...: Had a rough night yesterday my 3 year old was at urgent care getting x rays of her head, everything turned out good,husband only worked 1 day this week at ups because strike is friday and he has been there for 20 years and they are being sneaky so he can't collect unemployment because they worked him one day. Go to church and believe in god but right now I guess there is a different plan for me. God will answer on his terms.; July 29, 2008 9:14 AM
Sandra said...: Had a rough moring emotional and I feel its not getting better, I put a pork roast in the crock pot and I'm making pulled bbq sandwiches my husband and kids are asking for a normal meal and I'm not in the mood to cook. Today I will be breaking down my kitchen because every summer before I go back to work I go through each room and closet, cabinet and get rid of and orginize before school. I'm way behind so if I do a room a day I will be back on track hopefully. Maybe I'll jump in the pool I've only been in it once this summer and I had big plans for that to.; July 30, 2008 10:23 AM
Sandra said...: Ilove working out when Lisa is there, she makes me feel motivated and tells me to hang in there and not give up. Today is 2 weeks and it is rough. I eat, sleep and think my dad. I talk to him all day and people must think I'm crazy. I was so close to him and I wish I had one more chance to smell, touch, talk, and just see him, I would do so much more. I don't know what. I'm in a deep depression and my family is begging me to pull through this because my father wouldn't want to see me this way. My dad was perfect and I know he's with my grandparents and my son who would be ten and I find peace in that. Everyone of you have great qualities and have come along way, don't give up at anything. To the single mothers I was there once and I know how hard it is. Your kids do think the world of you and there are days you don't feel appreciated but they do appreciate you. Mine will be 15 and she will defend me even when I don't need it and does show and voice everything I have done for her when I was a single mom. Keep on fighting. I know there are brighter days ahead I just have to make it through the not so good ones. Take care.; July 31, 2008 3:38 PM
Lynne said...: Sandy, I am so glad to hear a bit of optimism back in your blog. Work through the hard times, you will come out a better person. Thanks for the motivation on being a single mom. It is very hard with my 2 teenage girls. My middle one in particular I would like to rent out for a few years. Actually, she would be rent free. How is your cleaning coming along? I bet that will be very theraputic for you to do now. If you run out of rooms, I have some you are free to organize. Take Care!; July 31, 2008 4:58 PM
sandra said...: I started off for about 20 minutes with Lisa core class and got sick I got a severe headache and felt like I was going to throw up when I was on the ball, I walked away and was attemping to do something else but I couldn't get over how I felt. I haven't felt like that ever. I got my email today and see the contest is extended I'm happy but exhausted on the other hand. School and work starts and I will be on overload. Take care.; August 1, 2008 5:54 PM
sandra said...: I has a long talk this morning with my father and myself so I can get through this challange until September. I promised him I wouldn't give up that was through the 24th of Aug, I know he would hold me till Sept 16th and my birthday is the 12th so its a little special. I came home from running some errands and my 14 year old told me I look like I lost weight and I'm smaller. I laughed because she never gives me positive comments. Maybe she up at night smoking crack. I'm going to church this evening with my mom and getting ready for my daughter's party. Take care.; August 2, 2008 3:23 PM
Sandra said...: Had a nice day for my 9 year old and it was weird my father wasn't present. I take each day one step at a time.; August 3, 2008 9:18 PM
sandra said...: I have to go back to work today for my 4 hour orientation meeting. Believe it or not all of us bus drivers get the same training as the teachers maybe more so,I hear. We are also randomally drug tested yearly and have a yearly physical by the state. Parents your kids are in good hands. I plan on doing spin if someone can save me a bike on the end, I,m going to try to get there at 3:45 if my mom doesn't lock herself out again. When I have plan they also get scratched. Tonight my mom and I are going to a greiving support at our church the priest said it was very good, and we really do need it because I don't want to be angry the rest of my life. I really miss him and my oldest had a hard time last night but she came to me and I just held on. Take care.; August 4, 2008 9:16 AM
Sandra said...: Yesterday was a very weird day and they say god works in mysterious ways and he does thankyou God. My mom and I went to the grieving support meeting last night and only one other guy showed up. I don't know maybe because of the weather. So he told his story how his wife had colin cancer and died July 2nd after complications after surgery and he wasn't sure if was from the surgery or medicines. Then we shared our grief and he asked us what hospital, and what doctor. Prior to knowing our grief he said he was investigating how and why because she had no problems until then. Guess what same doctor and hospital and had died within 2 weeks of each other and had surgery maybe a month or so. That is the craziest and I got chills when he told me. We were meant to meet for a reason of all days with the weather and he belongs to another church of a different religion and to end up grieving for our loved ones God was in this one full force. Thankyou God. I truely believe even when days seemed unbelivable. He asked for my dad's name I wonder what he would do with that. This gives me more reason to fight for my dad and honor his name and what he stood for. Take care.; August 5, 2008 10:50 AM
Anonymous said...: Sorry. Don't waste too much energy trying to fight Doctors or a Hospital, very few people win like less than 5%. I tried and failed - should have spent my time trying to get my family back together and some peace of mind.; August 5, 2008 9:01 PM
Sandra said...: Took my mom yesterday to do alot of errands, stuff at the dmv and getting salt and I actually moved all 6 40 pd bags myself, before yah right, never. Just alot of other stuff also today it was very sad because she can't hear and when the day was done she broke down and said it is getting worse. I encouranged her to go to a hearing doctor before her insurance is done in September. I know the hearing aids don't work but will see. Today at 10:00 we have some appt. and other stuff to do, I just love being with her and making sure she is okay. I have taken the role of my father and she calls me to come over to fix things and before I couldn't now I can climb latters and do things I couldn't do before. I have this eneregy and I have no fear. Thankyou. Take care.; August 6, 2008 9:06 AM
Sandra said...: My spelling is really bad when I just ramble on sorry.; August 6, 2008 9:08 AM
Sandra said...: Just been working out strange times last night at 7:15 there was alot of people there. I just do my own thing, I'm not ready for sunday and may not attend because I'm very depressed and have no energy. I'm taking my daughter to sign her up for high school today how exciting and scarey at the same time. I'll be in the gym sometime today don't know when. I had to ask Connie when I was gone for that week I lost 7 pds and I started working out and put them back on . She said it is muscle, I feel I lose more when I don't work out but she said I lose the muscle and everything else is also breaking down. Take care.; August 7, 2008 11:31 AM